I grew up in a Christian country home, went to Church about every sunday had Christian friends went to Christain camps.  You would think that I had the perfect home life to grow up into and that everything was okay, but it wasent.  Growing up I had many struggles, all threw school I had to go to special education and have had eye therapy.  Made matters worse was people did terrible things to me because of it.

I believe I carried all this hate all the way to  highschool.  I tryed wrestling but I failed because I became to prideful of my great sucess.  It seemed all about proving everyone wrong and making myself look good.  Then I really made a mistake, I was so desperate to get even that I started getting into druidism, (druidism similer to wicca).   I think that was going through my mind was, I wanted to some how supernationally get my vengance.   What ended up happening I was so angry that I wanted to take my own life.

Then it all came to me, I was a hippocrit, here I was going to Church and calling myself a Christian and know I wanted to take my life.  I knew I had problem and seeked my new youth pastor for help.  I told my story and all he had to say was, have you really asked Jesus into your life.  That then was a challege for myself, either let go and follow Jesus or stay the way I was.  It wasent a simple thing, it was hard pulling from control and the feel of power.   After that night I asked Jesus into my life, I said something to my pastor that I have never forgot, my head feels clearer know.  It was such a strange feeling in a good way.

Since I have been a Christian I have been very interested in evangelism, exspecially primative mission work.  I have heard of parts of the world where people are in bondage because they fear spirts or other things related to that.  I am hoping that God can use me to show people like this his light and message, that God is a loving God and he can change your life forever.